6th April Not everyone can deal with life, reality. God knows I’ve tried. More than 9ys in therapy off and on. At school before that with the counsel our. Mania I call it, when this uncontrollable demon takes over my body and causes me to act out in ways I would not dream possible and speak in such a tone and arrogance, anger and rage that I take on another role for I assure  u I am not myself at that time. It can last for an hr, 2, a day and then the depression for weeks, months and then in between the reemerge of the demon from within. I feel a heightened sense of self, manifestations of paranoia, body shakes, legs mainly, cold and hot flushes.